Babies & Childhood

My fertility monitor finally predicted ovulation for Friday. My husband is working long hours this week, so it will be more challenging than usual to find time together, but he's determined. So am I. I truly want to get pregnant before his mother's surgery. 1) It would give her a reason to drop her pessimistic attitude and pull through the surgery, and 2) I don't know when we'll find time to be together if she's in the hospital during the peak period of my next cycle.

DH wants to get me pregnant very badly. He knows how much a child means to me. He's still blaming himself that we're not pregnant or bouncing a baby boy or girl on our knees right now. Depending on his mood, he either blames his motility issues or he blames himself that we waited so long to marry and start trying for a baby. Or both. He's not averse to entertaining both ideas at the same time. Me? Given my age and my shortened cycles, I'd say I might part of the problem, as well.

I'd love to give DH a child. He didn't have much of a childhood. His parents were . . . shall we say, frugal, both with their money and their time (his dad especially). I won't go into details, but he doesn't have many fond memories growing up. He didn't have a bad childhood, it simply wasn't memorable. His most treasured memories come from spending time with his grandparents: visiting them every Saturday, taking walks with his grandfather, sitting on the front porch with them after dinner, being allowed to be a kid. I want to be able to give DH a child so he can do with his son or daughter the things that he never got to do with his own parents. I want him to be able experience through his own child the childhood that he never had. He'd make such a wonderful father. I want to make him one.